I just wanted to say thanks again to everyone who has shown their support in this thread.
The best way to explain my drinking habits, was back in Canton I went down to party with the OM tailgate. I started drinking at about 7 PM and kept on going until 6 AM where a little bit later I passed out on the couch in the RV totally hammered out of my mind, and have a blurry recolection of the night before. Probably to most people it would be "Hey, you went to a huge tailgate party and got tore up, it happens to everyone," but that wasn't a special occasion, thats how I've been known to drink since I basically started, and through 5 years of that and doing it at least twice a week, it just took an enormous toll on my body(added in that I'm only 5"9' and 150 now, was probably only 120 when I started) and I needed to stop.
Last summer, if you ever read some posts of mine at night and said to yourself "This guy has to be drunk to say these things and type this way," well...you were right. Last summer was the worst, not a night went by without me getting drunk, and back then it was something to brag about, now I look back and am pretty ashamed of what occured to me. To say that I spent 3 full months of my life drunk every night is not something to be proud of, and not something to show off as some kind of token gift that God gave me.
It's tough, especially with turning 21 just 6 months ago and not doing the "normal" tuff that 21 year olds do, but the way I drank and the length of my drinking has already caught up with me, and it's taken a lot of willpower and a few trips to the doctors and/or hospital to fight it off, but I feel stronger than I used to now. Still have things medically wrong with me due to drinking that isn't making me feel as good as I should be, but they'll soon go away now that I've knocked this habit down.
Thanks again to all who have shown support.